The Apollonian Hermetic Maenad

If I have removed you in error or you wish to be on here, please comment.

It's time to do what I've been putting off for months, and that is ending this LJ. I don't even go by the name Kyrene anymore, and this LJ has long ceased to be who I am. I will be removing everyone from my friends list and saving the entries for my own personal use.

This will be my last post. You know where to find me otherwise.

I'll be unfriending a lot of people from this LJ over the next few days. Please don't take it personally, but I need to narrow down the people who see my entries from now on to the people whom I can totally trust to not post friends only or filtered posts behind my back, give me a hard time about my beliefs, or cause me unnecessary drama. If we only know each other online, only have had a couple conversations, you'll get taken off. I'm sorry for this and it's not personal. I'm going to be pretty severe in my cuts, and not many exceptions will be made.

I've started a public lj that everyone can be on. If you're still on this one (if you can still see my friends only posts that means yes you're still one) you don't need to friend the public lj. Friending both will mean you most likely will see duplicate posts however.

My trust and patience for the Internet has been completely eroded away. I'm tired of apologizing for my opinions and beliefs and I shouldn't have to. If you remain here, it's because you've shown me that you can be an adult, and agree to disagree with me without giving me a hard time.


My new public lj is here: kyrene_ariadne


See you all on the flip side,
Kyrene

1it's all about you
do not let my lj posts tell you otherwise
every post is you

and all about you
if I disagree it's you
opinions are all

reflections of you
even what I ate today
is all about you

well I am sorry
the world is not about you
neither are my thoughts

beliefs, or opinions
you take personally what
was never about

you to begin with
perhaps you should meditate
on why the people

whom you talk to are
are all against you because
they all disagree.

Todd, get on LJ already. You're missing the fun.

If there is someone on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Ok, since people are STILL getting hung up over the moon thing, which wasn't even important to begin with except as a suggested time to do the rituals, here's my next suggestion.

6:06 pm on the 6th day of the month. And don't even look at the moon before you do the ritual, because you might start to think too much about whether or not Artemis is associated with it or not. Oh, starting on the 6th second. So it'd be 6:06:06.

Please, no anti-Christ jokes please. Artemis carries a bow and knows how to use it.

If you're seriously interested, btw, and want to contribute to the group, email me and I'll add you to a private discussion list.

So far most of the feedback has been generally positive, but I got two wtf responses from people that leave me scratching my head. Did I somehow give the impression that the group was centered entirely around Artemis and her association with the moon? If so, the entire point of the idea that I have been posting about has gone over many people's pointy little heads. I actually had someone go on and on about Diana versus Artemis and the work would be better (???!!11eleventy-oneomgbbq) if I worked with Diana as opposed to Artemis, because Diana is more strongly tied with the moon.

W...t...f.

People make my brain hurt.

I'm sorry, but I don't need everyone's explicit approval to do work, REAL LIFE work, pertaining to Artemis, especially work that would actually help women within and outside of the Hellenismos community. If you think that I need your approval, I need to write you a reality check, stat.

In the meantime, I'm scouting out good epithets of Artemis that would assist in this project. Maybe Soteira?

A few months ago, I had a dream in which Artemis came to me and asked me to create a new, modern tradition for her. Usually when I get things like that, I think to myself afterwards, "Ok, that was an interesting personal experience...let me file it to the back of my mind and puzzle it out for later."

I've had the seed of an idea and it finally sprouted when I was in Salem. I'd like to start the Hellenic recon version of a Dianic group--but unlike many Dianic groups, have it open to transgendered women and male feminists. I want to support men who are champions of women and women who were born with male equipment. I also would like it open to anyone who wishes to honor Artemis and not just Hellenists let alone Hellenic recons. I think that Romans, Wiccans, and neo-Pagans should be allowed to join.

Basically, it'd have a Hellenic framework but with modern interpretations and adaptations. I want to establish a spiritual tradition that would help empower women, and get in touch with Artemis as a protector and defender of women. I want to get off on the myth of the nymph who was found wrestling lions with her bare hands, and wound up marrying Apollo after he compared her to his sister. I want to help men understand how to be men and treat women well, and to do otherwise is to dishonor the goddess.

I remember vaguely that the dream said something about the moon. I think that rituals for her should be held by the group on new and/or full moons, and support activites like learning self-defense, donate/volunteer at women's shelters, and personal introspection/meditation/alchemy surrounding the idea of being a strong, independent woman regardless of martial status or sexual orientation, and to support men who want to be with and support women like that.

Thoughts? Ideas? Do people grok what I'm thinking of here?

( Cindy Sheehan: 'My arrest: What really happened' )

Also...Teen Investigated for Homework Threat to Bush

trolling my lj
to harrass me about a
past relationship

is a bad idea
and in extremely bad taste
kick in crotch for you

maybe I will share
harmful and embarrassing
info about you

I am a bigger
person than that however
tho am not less kind. :P

which is why I write
haikus to mock idiots
who post on my blog.

Admit it, the only reason why I haven't been flamed so far is because people fear the haikus :)

nemo_wistar's take on the State of the Union address.

Awesome. Priceless. Must-read.

lady_babalon's advice to women on reproductive rights.

The reason why I didn't have a rabbit hole post on rabbit hole day was that it got eaten by the rabbit hole.

"Freedom means the opportunity to be what we never thought we would be."
-Daniel J. Boorstin

From badseed1980:

Anyone near West Jersey?

The West Jersey Animal Shelter is closing at the end of this month. The Pennsauken, NJ shelter had it's license revoked due to unkept and dangerous conditions for the animals. There are currently 31 dogs and 5 cats on the premises that are in desperate need of adoption. If these animals are not adopted by the end of the month, they will be euthanized.

The West Jersey Animal Shelter is open for adoptions Monday through Friday from 11 a.m. until 4 p.m. and from 11 a.m. until 5 p.m. on Saturdays and Sundays. Phone (856) 486-2180.

Even if you can't adopt an animal, please repost this. Eventually it will reach someone who can. Even if only one pet is adopted, that's still a big difference for that animal's life.

So, for those who didn't see it over the weekend due to Arisia or whatever, I created a vegetarian and vegan community for people in the Boston/Greater Boston area:

boston_veg

Pescatarians, people who are trying to eat healthy meatless meals, people who are dairy/lactose intolerant and learning to live without are welcome. :)

Beware the Dallas PD

Thanks, contentlove!

boston_veg

:)

From brontosproximo:

Mississippi's Invisble Coast

Why would someone care
about what I eat and don't?
Please get a life now.

You aren't even on
my friends list, why do you care?
Get a new hobby.

The next person who
Decides to troll my LJ,
Bug me about words,

food choices, and all
sorts of bullshit that is not
their concern at all-

Please, for the love of
The gods, please go suck an egg
Or stick a cheese wheel

up your ass, where it
will show you the fun I've had
for the past nine years.

Submit your own plea to Cthulhu!

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Saturday I put gum in healwlove's hair (-12 points). In February I farted in an elevator (-6 points). Last Friday I bought porn for magus_bacchus (10 points). In October on a flight to Vancouver, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). In August I pulled over and changed sunstealer's flat tire (15 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-33 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, kyrene

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

You scored as Nebuchadnezzar (from The Matrix). You can change the world around you. You have a strong will and a high technical aptitude. Now if only Agent Smith would quit beating up your friends. Coming on December 1, 2005: Your Ultimate Sci-Fi Profile: which sci-fi crew would you best fit in? The Sequel </td> Nebuchadnezzar (from The Matrix) 100% Moya (from Farscape) 94% Serenity (from Firefly) 88% SG-1 (from Stargate) 88% Enterprise D (from Star Trek) 75% Bebop (from Cowboy Bebop) 56% Millennium Falcon (from Star Wars) 50% Galactica (from Battlestar: Galactica) 44% Your Ultimate Sci-Fi Profile: which sci-fi crew would you best fit in? (pics) created with QuizFarm.com

Happy Veteran's Day!

Today I think of my grandfather, who was a survivor of Pearl Harbor. A strange and fortunate accident got him reassigned from the infamous Arizona to the West Virginia--this, I believe, saved his life.

He played the drums in the Navy. I remembered this today when I drummed with others, as I remember watching him play in a band when I was a little girl.

We used to go out boating together in upstate NY with me, him, my grandma and grandparents, and 2-3 uncles. The pontoon boat was named the "Wee Vee" in honor of the West Virginia.

Here's to you, Grandpa! Happy Veteran's Day, wherever you are.

I've decided to stop posting in my LJ indefinitely, but will be keeping this LJ to read and comment in other LJs.

I'm much happier this way, honestly.

If you unfriend me as a result, I'll understand, but for those of you who have filters and/or friends only LJs, I beg of you to keep me on so I can keep on chatting with you. Thanks! :)

This is the email I have just sent off to the Hellenion list. I feel that people who aren't on it should see it.

----
This is not an easy email to send to everyone here, especially at this
time. I've decided to resign my Hellenion membership. I realize that
this is going to shock some and disappoint many, but recent events
have made it clear that I no longer belong here.

When I resigned from my Prutaneis position, I knew that a few in the
Prutaneis had taken it personally, and saw my criticisms of the
organization as an attack on them individually. Despite my best
efforts to clarify, much of what I have said appears to have been
needlessly taken to heart. Nonetheless, I had no idea just how
personally they took it until I received a letter that the leaders
have been passing around via postal mail, signed by each, that I was
being kicked out of the clergy education program due to receiving what
was supposedly an "ambiguous response" as to whether or not I wished
to continue in spite of my criticisms of the program.
( the rest... )

I did not make this decision lightly. But I must confess that I had no idea that the leadership would stoop this low. Some of them I had thought were my friends, and NONE OF THEM had the decency to approach me first and say something. I wonder how much communication issues would be avoided if people took the time to actually speak to each other versus sending official letters like this.

However, I must look on the bright side--I can now focus on Dadoukhoi, where my energies best belong. And I am taking the letter I have received this weekend as a confirmation of that.

Edit: I KNOW that the Prutaneis will try to say something, and so I am posting the ENTIRE text of the letter they sent me. There was no misinterpretation on my part, everything was pretty black and white in here (typos included):

( Dear Andrea.... )

I might also add that this letter was not unanimously signed. For that, at least, I am grateful. To those who didn't (and you know who you are), thanks. I really appreciate it.

( Hellenion's response, and my comments... )

Instead of saving the critically ill, let's kill them instead...

Oh it gets better. My agency just sent me an email.

You're gonna love it...


Hi Andrea;

A couple thoughts.

We really enjoy working with you and regardless of what you decide will continue to maintain the relationship as we appreciate your work.

( no wait you gotta read this really... )

I just got off the phone with the agency for the Fri interview.

I played it cool. I didn't want to badmouth the agency I've been working for, nor did I want to sound like I hated the job opportunity either. I don't. It's just that I know that I could do better, and I don't want to just blindly jump at the first offer.

I asked him what he thought about my possibly telling this company that I'm sitting on an offer--in fact, as of tomorrow will have to turn it down because I am far more interested in the possibility of working for this company.

"Did you ask them to wait a few days?"

Oh yes, I told him. But they would have none of it.

He told me not to listen to their saleman pressuring *g* I love playing these guys off of each other. Now, I used to work for this agency out of a different office location, so I've already got a kind foot in the door.

I said that I figured that they were a little nervous at the prospect of losing me, because of what he had said to me. He asked me what it was, and I laughed and told him about the "reality check" statement. These guys do that whole professional front thing but I thought that he was gonna pop something.

"They said that?!"

"Yup."

Well, here, let me make this entry shorter. I don't want to count my chickens before they hatch, but according to this guy--dunno how true it is--they're already scrambling around to see if they can be prepared to make me an offer. I might even get one right at this interview. I don't know. It'll depend on how much they like me.

So, we shall see.

Then, tomorrow I will hand my agency my answer. "Here's your reality check..."

Heh.

I never knew that I could be this popular.

They're now saying it's not a dollar less, it's the same amount of money and they're giving me until tomorrow. Lots of salesman shit about how I shouldn't be relying on this second interview.

Uh huh. :)

I'm not sweating. If they were to look in my inbox and voicemails, THEY'D be sweating. Omigods. ATM, they're practically stalking me to get a yes out of me.

I can't wait to have a perm job and never have to deal with the pimps ever again.

I love how he opened up.

"Here's the reality check..."

I put up my middle finger to the cell phone at that point. :>

One offer has come in. It's at the place I was working at, and for a dollar less an hour than what I was making.

I'll have to stall them for the Fri interview. I have no choice. I can't potentially turn down a perm job and I can't just jump at the first offer that comes in. And no, I don't see, dear agency, how it would "benefit my career to stay in the financial industry." I'm a .NET developer. Senior level. I can go anywhere.

We shall see. The perm place called back REALLY fast and they've already called my references. I think that I have an excellent shot at it. I can already see myself working there. But... I can't jinx it. Heh.

Hi, I'm Kyrene and I'm bi (Hi Kyrene!).

In honor of today, I'm linking to my LJ post when I first "came out." It wasn't that long ago (March 2005):

"I don't think I'm straight. I think I'm just super picky about both genders, just even more so towards women."

I didn't get the job I had wanted. They called to say that they really liked me and want to consider me for a perm role but I wasn't "senior" enough for them--or rather, wasn't senior enough for their 7331 interviewer who gave me a seriously hard time. Sadly he's the director so I guess his input matters.

BUT...this is good, because I was wondering how I was going to choose between that one and the interview I had today. I had wondered if I would like them or not. The money sounded good, it's perm, and it's in the Back Bay. I figured I'd know when I walked in, and sure enough, very nice guys, great opportunity, and it's a senior title for ASP.NET. Which was why I panicked for the tech interview and studied my brains out.

It paid off, cause that was the tech interview that I aced today. :D

They called back IMMEDIATELY and want a second interview, which I think is the final one. It is this Friday.

And in the mail today arrived my winged sandal pendant....

Thank you, Hermes!

W...T...F...

I aced the tech interview. Heh. :)

I fucking hate tech interviews. Been studying at night and in the morning for this stupid thing.

I have one today. It's purely tech. They won't ask about me, my background, what I've done, they'll only care whether or not I know how caching works in ASP.NET.

Wish me luck. :P

Still haven't heard back. Not sure what that means, or if it means anything at all. I guess I'll call tomorrow afternoon if I don't hear by then?

In any event, I have another interview tomorrow with #2 choice, supposed to be nothing but tech questions. Oh joy oh boy.

Interview went very well. Still waiting to hear back, as supposedly I will know the outcome today.

( A chat, whereupon it must be said that people need to be more explicit and up front with details, and not expect people to know about Christian customs. :) )

Dadoukhoi's public list

This may be woefully premature (and I'm thinking it is, but oh well :) ) but there's a list open for people interested in finding out what we are (and not) about.

If nothing else, it will serve as an announcement list for how we're coming along and when the org will be up and running. I've got the domain name registered and we'll be working on a website.

As an aside, I have a lot of confidence in this group. We have some great minds whose attributes and personalities compliment each other nicely. Together, I think that we can produce a kick ass org that will grow slowly and grow well.

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I've been posting about this friends only, but it's not really a secret anymore.

As of last Friday, I've been laid off from my job. While I may be concerned about finances after my paychecks run out, I frankly am relieved because I hated it there with a passion. I have several irons in the fire, including a potential job for a very well known Internet based company. That one is my first pick as it's good money, will eventually go perm, friend of mine is working there already (mizdarkgirl), and there are way too many synchronicities to be believed with the consulting company's name, including a Rush and Hermes reference.

I have a face to face interview with the company of choice tomorrow at 8am. Wish me luck, and may Hermes bless this opportunity!